Disclaimer: If there is a chance you will not like what you are about to read, do not read it. This is my blog, my release.
Rough times are the worst, yet they help define who we are, how we understand and communicate with others around us. I have spent the majority of my adulthood so far trying to see the good in everyone; trying to constantly find excuses for why people are the way they are and why they treat people the way they do.
I’ve been through quite a lot in my 24 years on the planet that I have now come to terms with the fact that I’ll never in a million years be able to figure people out and know why people do the things they do to either cause a hindrance to someone’s life, hurt someone’s feelings or more unnecessarily hurt someone physically.
I have been subject to being the victim and probably in the past been guilty of all the things listed above, but what is most important is how you turn your life around and realise that the way you treat people is so, so very important and stop treating people wrongly.
I have always believed in the quote ”treat people how you want to be treated.”
I’ve very recently had to come to terms with the fact that somebody who’s quite close to my heart is not who I thought they were or more accurately, wanted them to be. What I saw in them was completely erased in the last few weeks and this has been a massive lesson for me in my life and quite honestly, has opened my eyes, a lot.
Having finally gained control of my depression and anxiety, it was strange to experience something that I would have usually lashed out on, and feel completely different to what I expected. I was hurt, I had been made to feel like I had been ignored completely for the last year or so.
When you’re made to feel this way by anyone it’s quite a hard thing to get over, when it’s family that has made you feel this way, it’s even more difficult because there are much deeper emotions and feelings involved and eventually can cause more damage to a relationship or a person.
Not just myself, but another person in my family has been completely alienated from a family circle, made to feel like we’re irrelevant, not as important, and well honestly, worthless to someone we feel as though we should be priceless too.
I’ve been made to feel that my life is a competition with my family and I need to remember that this is not the case. It doesn’t matter who is better at taking photographs, who is going to pass their drivers test first, or who takes the biggest dump! We need not compete especially not with family.
2 weeks have passed and I am still feeling the after sting of what happened but in no way shape or form am I bitter, or unhappy for someone else, nor was I ever. There’s a line between being hurt and being bitter and it’s something people need to learn to differentiate from one another.
Over the past couple of weeks I have surrounded myself with the people that keep my head above the water, I have not let my feelings keep my down. I have spoken to people, because let’s be honest, keeping feelings inside does not help. I have kept my mind busy and not let the hard situation impact my college work, mental health and happiness. Let situations that are difficult make you stronger and let it strengthen relationships with the people that want a relationship with you.
Do not let other peoples actions, opinions or words define you.