All photographs were taken with a Fuji X-pro-1 with 27mm lens.
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All photographs were taken with a Fuji X-pro-1 with 27mm lens.
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Where has this week gone? I feel as though it has been a complete relief signing this week of here and being able to walk into a new one tomorrow. This week has been full of yet more stress that I’ve found really hard to shift from and shrug off.
On Monday we took a trip to see Stewart’s grandparents, we ended up going out for lunch at the crown and arrows. I the cheesiest macaroni cheese you can imagine and Stewart decided to go for the ”hot, hot, hot challenge” I tried a bit of his hot sauce and it blew my head off. How he managed to eat the whole lot I have no idea.
I spent the rest of the day playing sims 4 in bed. YES!!!!
I’m struggling to remember what we did today and there are no images on my phone to really suggest what we did do all day. I know we were supposed to be going to wetlands with my side of the family however we didn’t due to the rainy dull weather, good job we didn’t really as well as we found out on Wednesday that the place was shut now.
Wednesday was intended to be a day out at the beach with my side of the family, unfortunately, due to circumstances this was unable to happen and we ended up in Costa and at a local park instead. Still a lot of fun but not the kind of fun I think we all had in mind.
Thursday was ace. We went to a Japanese meditation garden with Stewart’s side of the family again and honestly, it was the best place I have been in a long time. It was so pretty and peaceful and it had the most wonderful crystal garden I have ever seen in my life. You can see the images from this here.
I’ve gone into a proper spiritual place myself recently and I do get the impression some people might think I’m a bit weird or bonkers for doing so but it’s something I have done personally in my own time for many years now only now I have accepted that I am a quirky soul and I am embracing that, no matter what other people think of me.
Friday was housework day. Since Stewart’s week, off started the house has been neglected massively and I just woke up in a foul mood and cleaned the shit out of the house. We then went to get some plants that clean the air within your home and then sat watching really badly made, cheesy documentaries for the rest of the day.
I woke up Saturday, not in the greatest mood and it wasn’t really looking like it was going to improve if I am honest so we decided to go to Rand Farm (The home that’s not home). What better way to rid yourself of negative energy than giving loads of animals attention and love. I honestly have become so connected with animals and life over the summer that nothing has made me happier than animals do. We even looked at the bunny rabbits and I was completely and utterly in my element. I am defo getting a Rex rabbit next.
We also decided to go ghost hunting, something we did for a laugh and to stimulate our curiosity really, however where we went was pretty dull… If you’d like to know more about this then please let me know.
Feel free to check out Stewart’s guest post here
Stewart’s last day off. I am soon back to my own routines. As much as it is nice having the company on such a long period of time off college it’s much nicer when you get to have that time back to yourself. For the past 2 weeks I have fallen out of my daily routine completely and I have paid for it. I have not worked out for two weeks and I’ve eaten complete junk and honestly, I cannot wait for Monday to come around so I can get back into the gym without any distractions and shift the pounds I’ve put back on.
Today we took a trip to Sutton on Sea, mainly to collect some materials for me to make some cute stuff with for the remainder of the summer but more importantly to brush off any negative energy from the week. I feel as though my week has been very negative and frustrating. Today I plan to return home in a fresh state of mind and a bit more positive.
Here we are, another week has gone by and I have to say it has been a lot better than last week. I’ve had a pretty positive, anxiety free week and it has been a breath of fresh air. I’ve had company for most of the week as well which has been nice. I love having people come and stay with me cause it actually forces me to do stuff instead of sitting staring at my MacBook doing all sorts of admin work. I haven’t really done anything totally interesting this week;
Another trip to mothers was on the cards today, me and Stewart drove up a lot later than usual and ended up having tea. I went back up in mums attic which is one of my favourite things to do. I came home with some of mum’s old clothes and old computers hoping to retrieve some old photographs but unfortunately, the computers were all wiped blank, but Stewart has decided to make his own computer now out of a ps2. Which isn’t nerdy at all. Before we went home, we all went for a drive so Andrew could show us his skills and honestly, he’s picking up driving really quickly and is already better at it than me, we won’t tell him that though because his head is already as big as the moon.
Because Nikki came home with us on Monday we dedicated Tuesday to colouring her hair from black to a much lighter colour. Nobody should ever dye their hair black if they’re going to be likely to want to change it without spending a lot of time and money on it in salons because it is a bitch of a colour to remove from hair. However, 7hours and 20 mins down and there is no trace of black or even brown in her hair. I think she is very happy with it now which is the main thing.
Me and Nicola decided we were going to play in the studio today and do some photographs. We decided to showcase her new hair and do a unicorn inspired shoot. It’s been a while since I was able to get creative with makeup and these kinds of fantasy inspired shoots are fun for everybody involved because they are so easy going and laid back and honestly can create some proper laugh out loud moments. You can see some of the photographs from this shoot here.
Mum picked me and Nic up today and we spent the day in Gainsborough. We didn’t really do much, just chilled, did some shopping, ate some chips and then went home again. It was a good way to kill a massive part of the day meaning I didn’t have to find something for me and Nic to do because it’s hard enough finding something for yourself to do let alone another person as well. When we got home from mums we sat down for an hour and a half painting some rocks; pics below.
I had some a4 playing cards delivered and They’re so much fun to play with. I have a bit of a thing for playing cards at the moment, I’ve seen A3 size on the internet and they are next on my purchase list.
I woke up with a cold brewing, but that didn’t stop me having the time of my life in the garden with Nik. We decided to trial run the water slide in my back garden. It would work a hell of a lot better with less wind and fewer dogs running in front of you every 5 minutes. We added some bubble bath into the lazy spa and basically, acted like kids for a good majority of the day and basically just made the most of the sunshine. The day ended with us playing cards until midnight, laughing hysterically at nothing. Who knew playing cards could give you so much fun and laughter.
Another day consisting of not a lot. We took Nik home today and spent some time catching up with mum yet again, I might as well move back in, haha! As soon as I got home I decided to move around the bunnies room and make it a bit more cosy and fun for them to live in. They’re all finally getting on together, Olive is the most dominant, she rules the whole house. I love sitting in the room with all my bunnies. They’re such happy little hoppers that love cuddles and attention.
Today we (Me and Stewart) went to Nottingham, mainly to take photographs but we found ourselves checking out what shops there was on offer. We didn’t take as much photography as we would have liked I don’t think, I got a good handful but Stewart got 6 blurry ones so he says. I will upload my pictures in a separate post – but here is a preview.
I hope you all have had a lovely week. I have and I plan on doing some extremely fun stuff this next coming week.
Stay happy and healthy folks,
I’ve re-wrote this post so many times before actually posting it out there for everyone to read because I’ve decided to speak out about some personal struggles within my own anxiety experiences. Because I literally have nothing to report to you about my week I’ve decided to do a bit of a chatty post to accompany it.
Anxiety, we all know how misunderstood this illness is and most of the time it comes paired with depression. Both of which I am a sufferer of. Admittedly I feel as though when I write about my own mental health issues that people do not take it seriously and not only that they see me as a weak human being and this doesn’t apply to everybody who reads my blog or listens to me when I speak to them about it, but sometimes I feel like I am being totally misunderstood and there’s always that underlying feeling that you feel like people are judging you or think you’re lying about it.
I’m going to seriously get pretty deep about my anxiety and depression in this post so warning to anybody who may want to stop reading now.
Before I was put on antidepressants I was in a really bad way. My thoughts were so morbid constantly. I used to picture myself hanging off every tree we drove past in the car. I would sit there in the bath at night and I would wonder if people would actually care if I never came out the bathroom alive. I would constantly visualise people dying in car accidents every time I knew someone was driving somewhere. I was terrified that the people close to me were going to die in a car accident as soon as they got in the car and I wouldn’t rest until I knew they were home or at a destination safe.
I thought these thoughts were completely normal, I was adamant that the way I was, was literally just me and the way I had to live the rest of my life. I thought that if I went to the doctors about it, they wouldn’t believe how I really felt and just send me off on my way without any help, since being on anti-depressants in January it soon became a shock and a relief when these thoughts stopped and I actually started to relax and enjoy life and feel a lot happier about things. I no longer have any of the issues above. I am completely and utterly content with how my life is.
Don’t get me wrong I still have underlying issues like being able to travel on my own, speaking on a telephone or even driving. For some reason, these seem to have much more underlying issues to them that the tablets didn’t make go away and they’re something I am dealing with as every day goes by.
This week has been a tough one because I have had an anxiety filled week and even now I am flooded with feelings of anxiousness. I get these flare ups occasionally and have done for the past few months. I have days where I would not eat either that or I eat so much that I’d be sat up all night feeling sick and have the worst heartburn I also have days where I isolate myself from everybody because I have so much going on in my mind that I need to take a day or two to calm down my mind.
I’ve been considering going back to the doctors but have currently just written how I’ve been off due to surrounding circumstances because when I was finally able to let go of any negative feelings then I found myself feeling a lot better. But this week I was faced with a hard decision on whether or not I wanted to go over everything I had forgotten about again. I found myself getting so worked up over the concept of it that I was getting chest pain, bad asthma attacks and a mass loss of appetite every day and I knew this wasn’t good nor healthy and something had to be done to stop this. Unfortunately without going into detail, what was offered to be done wasn’t good enough. Even explaining that mentally I cannot go through with something, that was not an excuse.
The most hurtful part of the whole situation I am being very cryptic about is that I feel like my mental health is not considered as important and anybody’s mental health should be taken 100% seriously. Mental health kills people and makes people extremely poorly. Why do people not consider this?
I just think anxiety, depression and any other mental health issue should be taken very seriously and people should consider this more regarding situations. Just because they don’t suffer from it or experience it on a day to day basis doesn’t mean it is not there and that people do not suffer from it.
Because of how much of an emotional roller coaster this week has been I honestly can’t remember what I did yesterday without stressing out over not being able to remember so I’m not going to go into a mass detail about how boring it has been.
So, how am I going to move on from this? I’ve done all I can offer and now I need to accept that and stop overthinking situations I cannot control. I’ve done my part and that’s all I can do now. I cannot control how other people want to approach or take on a situation and I won’t allow that to make me feel as though I have made the wrong decision. My mental health is the most important thing to keeping myself fit and healthy, in the mind and physically.
iPhone photography is something I am extremely interested in due to the accessibility and how easy it is to just whip out your phone and take a photograph. I almost feel ashamed to say that I don’t take my camera with me everywhere I go. Sometimes I change bags and simply just forget or more likely, unless I am planning on doing some shooting that day, I can’t be bothered to carry a heavy lump of technology around with me. My Canon 6D is my go to camera these days and honestly, it’s not the lightest.
I do this crazy thing, where I also feel bad for my Fuji XPro-1 if I take my Canon out without it, and I feel like this with all my cameras so now, If one goes, so do the other 2.
However, with my iPhone, I don’t see it as a ‘camera’ as such. It’s my phone so just like most people it comes with me everywhere, and guilt free as I am not worrying about my other camera’s feeling left out.
iPhone photography is a lot more convenient in more ways than one, I think we would all agree.
It still requires attentive skill and care though when you’re taking a photograph on your phone. You’re going to need basic photography knowledge and what I mean by that is you’re going to need to be able to understand composition and lighting most importantly.
You’re also going to need a good editing app. There are so many out there in the market today that cost nothing and they work a treat. I’ve tried so many over the last few years and honestly, the one I find myself returning to is VSCO. VSCO is a great app to download if you want to up your photography game because it has so many built in features to help you construct your image. The VSCO cam shoots in RAW, Gives you guide lines to help with composing your images, exposure controls and even comes with free filters to help your images really pop. The list is endless as to why this app is so great.
I am also a massive fan of those lenses you can get to clip on to your phone. They enable you to be so much more creative with your shots and allow you to do things with your phone that you couldn’t do before, like the macro lens you can get is my favourite! You can get so close in on something and on occasions, it works a lot better than my actual DSLR.
There’s probably loads more blogs out there that go into so much more detail on how to take better phone photographs but I want to just focus on the basics and the stuff that I do with my own phone photography.
I feel like phone photography helps me stay connected to the subject that I love, even when I want a break from it, or when inspiration is low, my phone is always in my hand for whenever and wherever inspiration hits me and inspiration hits me at the most ridiculous times.
Do you have any additional tips and tricks you’d like to add? Comment below.
I gave myself the mission of taking more photographs this week as I really feel like I don’t take enough. I have a phone that takes perfectly good photographs so I have no excuse to not shoot at all. I do however need to use my camera more, maybe next week I will get my studio out and do some studio shots, it’s been a while since I shot in the studio. Enough about that; let’s get on with the catch up, got your cuppa?
A beautiful sunny Monday! Ah, It felt good to feel the hot sun on my skin again. Me and Stewart went to Gainsborough for lunch at nanna’s house; I always enjoy spending time with family. No matter what it is whether we’re invited on a day out or to just spend the day at their house. No matter what you’re doing you’re always making memories. The ultimate highlight of my day was when I made friends with a black kitty in the alley by the side of nan’s house. I’ve never seen this one before (Nan gets super aggy if I call all the cats to her house at once and I do this whenever I get a chance, I know all the cats in nan’s street!)
Tuesday was a day of admin, due to the gorgeous weather I decided to do it outside. I didn’t get very far with it as I didn’t take my sunglasses out with me and have any of you actually tried writing on white paper with the sun beaming down on the page? It legitimately blinds you and unfortunately, I was too lazy to go in and grab some sunglasses and instead took it all inside, stared at it a bit longer and that was it.
Me and Stewart also got out our wedding scrap book and started working on it. We’ve noticed how quickly 1 year went by and decided it was time to start looking at stuff (with only 4 years remaining.) and coming up with budgets. We were supposed to be looking at potential venues this time, but instead made a clear set decision on where we wanted it to take place, and what date in the future. So I guess, WE HAVE AN OFFICIAL WEDDING DATE?
Wednesday didn’t result in much, I am struggling to remember what I even did as there are no images in my phone from Wednesday. Probably another day of sitting at my computer screen, trying to piece together idea’s I have for my photography and wondering where the hell I am going to find the models for it.
p.s If you guys know of any models or something or a good place to look for models then please, help a girl out and send it forwards.
Thursday, I did something, obviously with the go ahead from Stewart because I would never just come home with a fluffy animal without Stewart’s permission. (I totally have done this once!!)
Okay, so the background here is that I’ve wanted a big fat black lop bunny for a while, to even out my colours in the rabbits and I want to put all their names on their hutch door, but there are 5 spaces and I only had 4 rabbits.
We went into the pet shop, to pick up mums bunny Gandalf. He was alone, nobody wanted him and so mum had bought him. a beautiful black and grey lion head, obviously, there’s going to be trouble taking me into a pet shop that sells live animals. I can’t bear to see them caged.
TEENY, TINY BABY DWARF RABBITS. Safe to say I bought one and it came straight home with me, SO not really the big fat lop I wanted, but still black!
Everybody, meet Bronson.
I decided to drag the Studio set up out and originally planned to do some still life work, however, the dogs as soon as the studio comes out and is erected think it’s time for their photographs to be taken and like the soft head I am, I just cannot say no to them. I always photograph them but never have I ever managed to get a photograph of them both together, until today. Aren’t my boys just the most handsome devils ever in these images? I was contemplating getting the rabbits out but that’s too much effort for solo shooting. I need Stewart my wing man for that.
Today me, Alison (Stewart’s mum) and Bec (Stewart’s sister) planned to go to a psychic and clairvoyant fair based in Market Rasen. The day started as normal as possible, with me and Alison venturing out to Sleaford to pick Bec up, roof down on the Mercedes, being ladies (haha) of leisure, We picked Bec and Ron (Bec’s dog!) and headed back to Lincoln to drop of Ronny at home so we could get out to Market Rasen to explore the fair. The day was going according to plan until we hit a mass standstill of traffic. Due to an accident located in the middle of Lincoln, the WHOLE of Lincoln came to a standstill and a half an hour journey turned into a 2 hour one; this didn’t leave us with much time to get to the fair and have a good look around, eventually, thanks to matt being driver for us, we got there with an hour of exploration time before it closed. We were out of there again within 10 minutes. It wasn’t very good and we left and found some lunch in a nearby pub. I am now planning my next business venture. Selling crystals and laminated quotes and printed images.
Today and went to see my Uncle in the hospital and then I let Stewart take photographs of me, kind of with a lot of assistance from me because I like my photographs to look and be taken in a specific way and style. Somehow it is half 7 and I have no idea where the hell the day has gone but I hope you have all had a fantastic week.
I have also decided to do a lot more photography related posts on this blog so keep your eye out for them!
Happy Wednesday everybody! Hope you’re all having a great week so far and have been enjoying the wonderful sunshine. Today I have got a very short and sweet post for you πall;
I’ve been playing a lot with my photography recently and for some reason, I am drawn to photographing streets. I don’t even know what this kind of photograph would come under subject wise. I always find myself pottering to the prettiest part of Lincoln when I want to take photographs because it’s so photogenic and accessible and I always spot different things every time.All images have been taken using Canon 6D.
All images have been taken using Canon 6D.