Sisterly Bonding and Photoshoots! 6/08/17


Here we are, another week has gone by and I have to say it has been a lot better than last week. I’ve had a pretty positive, anxiety free week and it has been a breath of fresh air. I’ve had company for most of the week as well which has been nice. I love having people come and stay with me cause it actually forces me to do stuff instead of sitting staring at my MacBook doing all sorts of admin work. I haven’t really done anything totally interesting this week;


Another trip to mothers was on the cards today,  me and Stewart drove up a lot later than usual and ended up having tea. I went back up in mums attic which is one of my favourite things to do. I came home with some of mum’s old clothes and old computers hoping to retrieve some old photographs but unfortunately, the computers were all wiped blank, but Stewart has decided to make his own computer now out of a ps2. Which isn’t nerdy at all. Before we went home, we all went for a drive so Andrew could show us his skills and honestly, he’s picking up driving really quickly and is already better at it than me, we won’t tell him that though because his head is already as big as the moon.


Because Nikki came home with us on Monday we dedicated Tuesday to colouring her hair from black to a much lighter colour. Nobody should ever dye their hair black if they’re going to be likely to want to change it without spending a lot of time and money on it in salons because it is a bitch of a colour to remove from hair. However, 7hours and 20 mins down and there is no trace of black or even brown in her hair. I think she is very happy with it now which is the main thing.



Me and Nicola decided we were going to play in the studio today and do some photographs. We decided to showcase her new hair and do a unicorn inspired shoot. It’s been a while since I was able to get creative with makeup and these kinds of fantasy inspired shoots are fun for everybody involved because they are so easy going and laid back and honestly can create some proper laugh out loud moments. You can see some of the photographs from this shoot here.


Mum picked me and Nic up today and we spent the day in Gainsborough. We didn’t really do much, just chilled, did some shopping, ate some chips and then went home again. It was a good way to kill a massive part of the day meaning I didn’t have to find something for me and Nic to do because it’s hard enough finding something for yourself to do let alone another person as well. When we got home from mums we sat down for an hour and a half painting some rocks; pics below.

I had some a4 playing cards delivered and They’re so much fun to play with. I have a bit of a thing for playing cards at the moment, I’ve seen A3 size on the internet and they are next on my purchase list.


I woke up with a cold brewing, but that didn’t stop me having the time of my life in the garden with Nik. We decided to trial run the water slide in my back garden. It would work a hell of a lot better with less wind and fewer dogs running in front of you every 5 minutes. We added some bubble bath into the lazy spa and basically, acted like kids for a good majority of the day and basically just made the most of the sunshine. The day ended with us playing cards until midnight, laughing hysterically at nothing. Who knew playing cards could give you so much fun and laughter.


Another day consisting of not a lot. We took Nik home today and spent some time catching up with mum yet again, I might as well move back in, haha! As soon as I got home I decided to move around the bunnies room and make it a bit more cosy and fun for them to live in. They’re all finally getting on together, Olive is the most dominant, she rules the whole house. I love sitting in the room with all my bunnies. They’re such happy little hoppers that love cuddles and attention.


Today we (Me and Stewart) went to Nottingham, mainly to take photographs but we found ourselves checking out what shops there was on offer. We didn’t take as much photography as we would have liked I don’t think, I got a good handful but Stewart got 6 blurry ones so he says.  I will upload my pictures in a separate post – but here is a preview.

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I hope you all have had a lovely week. I have and I plan on doing some extremely fun stuff this next coming week.

Stay happy and healthy folks,


Family, Thunderstorms and 18th Celebrations! 9.7.17

Good afternoon everybody! Hope you’re all feeling good and not too daunted by the fact that it is Monday tomorrow but it’s time to catch up on what has happened throughout the week!

Monday consisted of house maintenance and waiting for a washing machine to arrive. A brand new washing machine that hopefully, we will have a lot more luck with compared to the previous machines we’ve had in the last year or 2. After that we took a drive to Gainsborough, my sister Lucy was hating the way her house looked so we decided to go and drop her off some painting supplies and help her get started on making her house look a bit more personalised. She seemed to be much happier when we left. I know how it feels to live in a house and hate the way it looks. There’s honestly nothing better than being able to put your own mark on it.


Tuesday, I drove to Gainsborough. It was the first time I got back into a car and drove for a while. Honestly, I hate driving. I hate the pressure around me passing and I hate that all instructors I’ve been with have been complete arseholes. Maybe if I pass then I wouldn’t feel the pressure and would enjoy it. Honestly, though, I don’t have the money right now to get me through my test and that’s a bummer in itself. Asides from all that I spent the day at Mums with Lucy and Andrew, we played Mario and Sonic at the Olympic games on Nintendo ds’s and honestly it was hilarious to have all 3 of us playing one of the games we used to play as kids, giving each other shit when the other won and being sore losers.



Wednesday consisted of me spending time with my animals, lazing around the house and feeling sorry for myself. For some reason, I cannot come to terms with the fact that it’s ok to chill out and have nothing to do and because of that I purposely didn’t put a post up on Wednesday.  To show me it’s absolutely ok to do nothing all day. It was tough and I was constantly thinking about maybe constructing a post to go live but I didn’t because honestly, my mind space wasn’t great and it would have probably been some chit chat about something completely uninteresting.  The most strenuous thing I did all day bathed the dogs. They never look like they enjoy a bath but I know for a fact they do.


Thursday was another day spent in Gainsborough, again with mum, Lucy and Andrew. We had a pretty chilled day, the highlight of the day though was definitely me and Andrew sucking helium out of his 18th balloons. We had thunderstorms forecasted for Thursday and honestly I didn’t think they were going to happen. They never seem to happen anymore in the UK and about an hour before we actually had a storm hit us I sent my mum a text saying ”the day we get storms will be the day I eat shit!”  and mum said  ”Yeah me too” Turns out Thursday was the day I and my mum ate shit. (Funny, some people probably think me and mum talk a lot of shit. So that one’s for you!)
I saw the storm coming over the hill in the distance if you’ve ever seen out our house we can see quite far out from our little home on the hill. Mum had sent me pictures of her very angry looking sky and I got a little bit jealous because honestly, I didn’t think Lincoln was going to get hit by a storm. I sat outside watching the storm approach for about 45 minutes, as the storm got closer it turned redder, first, it was a pinky colour, then orange/pinky colour and then red. There’s a running joke in my family where everybody takes the piss out of me and says ”we’re doomed” everytime a storm is coming or there’s a remote sniff of possibility of a storm and that’s because I used to be obsessed with tornado’s as a young un and honestly, every time we had a storm I’d be 100% convinced we were getting a tornado and I’d hide under a mattress or table or something. Honestly, though, I saw these storm clouds on Thursday and honestly thought we were in fact, doomed.



Friday, a very boring Friday.  Nothing happened. I ate, watched youtube, had a workout and slept. Friday was a very CBA day. I watched a documentary on the weather, it was really good actually, you can see it here too;

Saturday we finally took my brother out on the town to celebrate his 18th birthday that was last weekend. We had pre-drinks at my home where we sang SingStar to get us all in the mood and ready to party and then we embarked on our way into town. Me, Stewart, Nan, Grandad, Mum, Gaz and Lucy and Ryan.  A long story cut very short, we had an ace night and I had the best time with these guys. One of the best nights out in a long time and I will just put it here that Lucy’s dancing is something otherworldly. It’s like nothing I have ever seen before and when you’re in a nightclub, you see a lot of strange dancing but her’s is just something else. I love my family. Oh, and I had a go at a bouncer. Yes, me. That’s for a whole other blog post though!

and finally, today, Sunday as I am writing this currently tucking into the biggest bowl of cheesy pasta imaginable because I LOVE CHEESY PASTA. I’m feeling good, probably the best I have felt all week. I have nothing planned for today and I’ve decided I am going to enjoy that!

Hope you all have a wonderful week! ❤











Birthday Celebrations & Realisations 2.7.17

Good evening everybody! I have just dragged myself away from Crash Bandicoot N. Sane Trilogy to quickly type up this weekly update!

I feel like this week has been a complete emotional roller coaster not just for me, but for some other members of the family as well.

It’s funny how really shitty situations can bring you so much closer to people. This week things started to look up for me, my brother and sister. I don’t want to say too much about it because it’s not that important, but what is important about it is how we’ve taken a really, utterly crappy situation and used it to bring us closer together. We’ve had the heart to hearts and I think we finally understand each other’s grounds. As long as we stay there for each other it does not matter who isn’t there for us and if you’re having a bit of a tough time, talk to someone, confide in a person close to you because you will find it really helps mend those wounds, no matter how deep they are.

My Final Major Project was a mass eye opener to the people who actually give a shit about me to take the time to look at the work I’ve been grueling myself with over the last few months, admittedly I left feeling a little unhappy that some people didn’t show however, I chose to carry out all my focus on the people that did show. You can read some more about this on my previous post.
Asides from the emotional roller coaster, I’ve had a pretty good week. Considering I stuffed my face today on the best all you can eat buffet I feel amazing, healthy and fit.

Today (2nd July) is my brother’s birthday. 18 years old. (Incoming sop)  I’m not gonna beat around the bush here but some people have the completely wrong impression about this lad. He has such a good heart and unfortunately, he doesn’t get enough credit for that. He’s a good lad and it is a complete shame he doesn’t get any kind of acknowledgement for that. He could be out drinking on parks, doing all kinds of rum crap but nope. I am super proud of the young man he has become and I look forwards to having him stumble into my house at stupid o clock in the morning when he doesn’t have enough pennies for the taxi home to Gainsborough from a night out in Lincoln. Haha!

Now that the sop is over with, we had an awesome day celebrating. We had a walk around Doncaster shopping centre and then went for an expensive but we’ll worth it all you can eat buffet at Cosmos. Oh my good lord. I wish I had got some photographs but honestly, I was like a bloody puppy going into a ball shop. Food from every bloody continent possible. Desserts of every bloody kind. I left with an extremely fat food baby. I rolled to the car.

Birthday boy and myself, showing off his fancy new bling.

We needed an up to date photograph of us tiddlywinks. They’re all my world ❤️
 A panoramic shot gone wrong.

Here are some more photos from the week;

There’s not that much exciting stuff in the photographs this week. I got a new phone yesterday and don’t have that many photographs on it to share with you.

Anyway, I hope you all have a lovely week.

Appreciation post / The End Of Year Show

Happy weekend people!

Initially, this post was supposed to go up last night however, I went on a bit of a downer and decided that once I got home I was going to sit in bed and eat Nutella pancakes.

Last night was the end of year show at college, basically, it gives us a chance to showcase our work to friends and family and our friends, friends and family.

It’s events like this when you see who really cares about you and what it is you’re doing. I had such an amazing support system Friday evening considering the previous 24 hours was a complete emotional rollercoaster and Friday morning I was an emotional mess.
I just want to say thank you to everybody that came to see my work. I’ve had a gruelling year and I say it with complete honesty when I say that my final picture was made with blood sweat and tears. There were many times I sat there and was adamant I was quitting and not doing it anymore.

Thank you, mum and nan, for carting me around to the far away destinations for me to get the material I needed. You two are actual gems and I couldn’t have done any of this without the both of you and your support.

Thank you to Stewart’s family, Alison, Matt and Becky for coming to see my work last night. You guys have no idea how much it meant to me that you came.

Thank you, Mum, Gaz, Andrew, Nikki, Jordan, Thomas, Eli, Lucy, Nan, Grandad for all driving down from Gainsborough for such a short visit. I know I did you all proud, won’t let me not know otherwise.  – I haven’t forgotten you Ryan, thank you so much for driving all the way from Doncaster to come and see my work. It means the absolute world to me. I couldn’t honestly ask for a better support system. You’re all amazing and you made sure you were there for me and that means more than anything in the world.

Thank you to Stewart coming and for putting up with my paddy’s over my work and being the rock I needed throughout everything and current situations.

And thank you so much for the beautiful necklace. You guys know me so well. I cannot wait to graduate and make you all even prouder.

These situations speak 1000 words. 

I love you all.






BBQ, Board Games & Beach Trip! 

Happy Monday everyone.

This weekend has been a much busier one than usual and it’s actually felt good to have a ‘proper weekend’. Unfortunately what I had originally had planned for the weekend just gone fell through because of the drop in temperature outside and lack of sunshine. It will however definitely happen sometime over the summer if not soon!

That hasn’t stopped me from having an awesome weekend though. Saturday I woke up feeling the healthiest and happiest I had been all week ( I had been a bit under the weather during the week!) I spent a stupid amount of time messing around with the template of my blog, trying to freshen it up a little bit. I have a feeling I’ll never be happy with the way it looks because I’m a perfectionist.

Later on in the day, we went to Stewart’s mum’s house for a BBQ. I absolutely love BBQ’s. I love how they bring a family together, sunshine, maybe even rain, food, alcohol, food.. so many different things everybody enjoys, we can all enjoy together.


After we played UNO we then played Brainiak, which was hilarious. I have never played it before and honestly, it was hilarious watching everyone bicker over their answers and harmlessly laugh at one another; Me and Stewart got a task where we had to write 5 things that are illegal, everyone laughed because I wrote ”Smoking in the car with a 16-year-old” Apparently it was ”very specific” and everybody, including myself, found it extremely comical. You can totally tell I’d never played this game before.

Sunday came and we had nothing to do, the weather wasn’t good enough for us to do what we had originally planned so, we decided to grab our camera’s and go for a trip to Skegness. We don’t go to the coast very much so it was nice to do something different for a change and honestly, the day was really relaxing. I didn’t find much that took my fancy to photograph with the big camera but it was nice to take it out, use it and brush off the cobwebs it seems to be collecting sat on my desk at home.

I ate everything you’re supposed to eat at the seaside today,  asides from the MUST HAVE; Fish and Chips. I definitely had a whippy ice cream and took home some dinky doughnuts though. That’s my favourite part of going to the beach after all.
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Keep an eye out for the Photography post with my images from the seaside, coming Wednesday this week!

See you later, Cyber Sweets!


Sorting through Mum’s Attic!

The words from mum’s mouth ”You can sort through my draws and cupboards.” was heaven to my ears. I don’t know when it became a hobby of mine to declutter and root through things but it’s been recently noticeable to myself. It wasn’t till we were sat chilled out in her living room that she said ”you also have the attic to do if you want.” I think she was half expecting me to say no but I jumped to the opportunity to do so. Who doesn’t love going to their parent’s house and rooting through the attic!

We got up there and it was jam packed off stuff, most people would take a look at it and feel dread fill their body but for me, excitement! What treasure’s would I be able to find? The first find was a baby picture of myself, mum seems to think I look beautiful, I, however, think I am an ugly ass baby. I’ll attach a photo below. Mum then found the picture that is famous in our household for the time I embarrassed mum an insane amount at nursery when I was 4 years old. I’ll attach a photograph but the whole story for this needs a post of its own.

I love most of all finding old photos and on the abundance of old laptops and memory boxes, we were able to find some quality memories. I ain’t gonna lie it took 2 days to clean out the attic but the inspiring, challenging words ‘you will not finish that attic today’ spurred me on to concur the little beasties, dust and junk!

Finding old pictures is always an amazing feeling because you get to look back on things you forgot even happened or remember happened but wasn’t sure or not whether you made it up; My sister found her old diary’s which I totally think she should start blogging about over on her blog because I think it will be hilarious. I found a small snippet in a book of something I wrote and I just droned on about how unfair life was and how I wished parents were like they were in movies. LOL!  Dramatic.  I even found a hilariously cringe MSN conversation with a friend back in school that I’d copied and pasted into a word document clearly as evidence against them; there was a number of other MSN chat logs but I’ll probably look through them at another time. We even found what we have of our home videos, and even though its loads of clips crammed into an hour long video and it’s all we have, I treasure it with all my heart. We will never ever get to relive these moments again and it’s nice to have the opportunity to look back at them.

I have much more things to sieve through and hopefully find some hidden gems in and I will post them when I do!

A really bad digi cam selfie.^^

Brilliant, state of the art fashion choices.^^


23 June 2017

It’s that time of the week, It’s starting to feel officially like summer!

I am starting to wonder whether or not these are too often for my ‘not so busy’ lifestyle. However, I have had a pretty fun week if I am completely honest. It’s been a week full of sunshine and fun.

As you know, last Friday my brother, sister and her partner were coming to stay with me for the night for some drinks and PlayStation fun. Well it turned out to be just as fun as I expected and honestly, the funniest part for me was bumping into my brother trying to convince himself he wasn’t drunk by placing one foot in front of the other and attempting to walk in a straight line, Oh and the fact it started to get hysterically funny when Andrew decided to respond to everyone with a very stern and high pitched ”EY” everytime someone said a word to him.

We have been completely blessed with the weather this week. I already have a pretty impressive tan, however, due to my eczema, my tan goes all patchy and horrible and honestly, I may have well fake tanned cause I get the same effect. Anywho, The week started off by having the best water fight with my brother (Andrew) and Sister (Lucy).

On Monday, Me and Lucy decided to buy some oversized syringes and have a water fight with them, it was stupidly hot outside so we decided to take full advantage of that and have some proper ‘summer holiday’s fun’ (I know it’s not technically the summer holiday’s yet but it is for us college peeps!)

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It was honestly, a blast.  I’ve spent a lot of time at mums this week. It’s such a happy environment to be in. You can 100% be yourself at mum’s, be an idiot, banter with your brothers and sisters, act like a child, I honestly love it. I am completely care free, surrounded by unconditional love, no judgement and no animosity.

We had to take Olive to the vet’s to be spayed this week, She’s come into her maturity as a woman and well, she took a bit of a disliking to Alfie and starting attaching herself to him by her teeth. Safe to say I think she might calm down now once those hormones leave her system. I hope so anyway. Her and Alfie always got on so well.

Aside’s from that I’ve been feeling pretty crappy towards the end of the week, All the fun at mums for 3 days took it out of me and I’ve been a complete walking zombie for the past two days, even writing this I have matchsticks in my eyes keeping them open. I haven’t ever felt so tired before in my life.

I think it’s safe to say though that It’s time to start hitting the diet and gym again, from the above pictures I can see a bit of a podge starting to make a reappearance in my shorts and this is not good; I did so well but because I have been struggling over the last couple of months I’ve now got myself into a bad eating and lazy routine and I am telling myself now this is not good enough! If the kickstart on the healthy living doesn’t work I might have to see myself going to the doctors.

Here are some of my iPhone pictures from the week, a PROPER childhood ice-cream, a beautiful sunset and just some of the things I am blessed with in life.



I am sending lots of love and hugs out today just in case you’re feeling as crappy as I do and you need that cyber uplift. Thank you for reading and I hope you all have a weekend full of fun and happiness.


All my love, cyber sweeties!